Just getting started.

 

Well, This is going to be new I guess, I have never actually done this stuff before so I'm sorry if anything sounds bad or whatever. 

If you want to get to know me and stuff then go ahead.

My name is Michille, I have just turned 15 in August. I am in a relationship with my boyfriend who has just turned 17 And I'm not very social. I have very low self confiance, I dislike a lot of things about myself. I have self-harmed before... But I stopped and I got help, So I am better now.

I am in little space, If some of you know what that is, then okay. But if you don't I will tell you.

Little Space is where you get into the headspace of a child, entering a child like care free space, Aways from being in the adult world or anything. Its a way of coping from some sought of stress that may be experiencing. It's a big community and everyone is accepted for those who are in it.

You have two types of people in it, You got the Littles and you got the Caregivers. See for I am a little, A Caregiver helps the little cope and help be there for their littles, For littles their caregivers are known as "Mommy", "Daddy", or something that they want to be called. My boyfriend is my caregiver, He helps me cope a lot with my anxiety and depression, he's always there for him when I need him. 

To be honest, He's the only person who has actually accepted me for who I am, I feel like most of the time I do annoy him and bother him when he is busy, but he always says I don't... but even if he says that I still think I do. He keeps telling me to bother him, To annoy him, because he says he loves it. 

I have became more... "happy", with him in my life. I have gained a little more self confidence, I'm becoming a little more social.

But there's been up and downs... where him and my "best friend", went behind my back and started talking.. like hooking up, doing stuff on camera, like sexual crap. My friend told me that him and her, were not doing anything, that she... kept "denying" that she didn't want to do anything. A month later, She and I are talking on call and she blankly just called herself out and said that they did do stuff... But before that I had forgiven my boyfriend for the things that did happen.. even though he said his friend pranked him and all that.. I don't know if he had lied or not, but I still forgave him. but I haven't confronted him about what they did... Because I'm scared that if I do he will want to end our relationship. 

My Ex best friends Ex and I are now friends, talking about what has happened, what should have happened, how we feel about everything. My boyfriend doesn't want me talking to him though because of what had happened. My Ex best friend and him started doing stuff and my parents started thinking that me and my boyfriend were doing things to but we were not.

But my friend is always there for me when I need him, always open with me, always checking up on me, asking if I'm okay everyday... To be honest, He's my only friend I have... and I'm glad I met him and that me and him are friends!

well... I'm taking as that I said to much on the first post, I'm sorry for such a long post. But I hope I can post and understand people of what they are going through, and how they feel. And I will try to post often everyday. 😅🖤

Michille.